In a moment of despair, my mother Anna made a decision in the afternoon of January 1, 2007 that took her life. In moments of desperation, hopelessness, and feelings of shame and embarrassment, my mother ingested her prescription medication that resulted in her going into a coma and ultimately her death on January 5, 2007. Although she left behind a 6-page letter to me, the only thing I believe is truly important is the first sentence: To my Vicki, I hope God forgives me.  I will never know what stage she was in at the time of writing that, but obviously God was on her mind.

My mother became a Christian in 1985, and although she had a tough time staying 'on course', she always would go to God for guidance and direction and attempt to get back on course.  believe God did forgive her, knew her hurts, and that her decision was done in unclear and unstable thinking. I do believe she is in Heaven and in a much better place and FINALLY healed and whole.Below is the eulogy that I shared from the services that took place at Norman Dean Funeral Home in Denville, NJ. On January 9, 2007 we celebrated the home-going of Anna Lauria Frusco; mother, sister, grandmother, aunt, friend and at times counselor. I say celebrate because not only did we honor the special memories and cheerful times of my mother, Anna, but also the fact that she has gone to a place that she will call home forever. Heaven.

Going home to be with Jesus is something to sing about, something to dance about, and something that should bring us joy. And although we will miss her presence, yearn to hear her voice and to hear her contagious laughter (followed by uncontrollable snorting), we can rest and have peace knowing that Anna is healed, healthy and whole --- Anna is in jubilation and celebrating in a way we can't begin to imagine. And, that is something to celebrate.